As with Donald Trump tweets, there’s a Hamilton song for every occasion:
I’m in recovery, according to Doc Awesome, which means (put slightly different) I’m on my own. Awesome, wow! But do I have a clue what happens now?
Well, yes. Kind of.
I’ve got relatively mild OCD. But I’ve been working hard at my recovery ever since getting thrown through a bit of a loop in mid-May, and four things have been especially vital.
They are, in approximate order of importance:
- Mindfulness (there’s no magic bullet for recovery, but I’m growing more and more convinced that mindfulness meditation is pretty darn close)
This is basic stuff, but it’s critical; if I don’t get enough sleep, for example, my brain will be grumpy the following day. I’ve done other stuff, too. I did daily exposure with response prevent, or ERP, from mid-May to early October. And I still take an antidepressant, though I plan on reducing my dosage in the new year. Ultimately, though, living with OCD often means simply living with OCD – letting the unwanted thoughts come and go, treating them like the mental flotsam they probably are, and not giving them any power. And it means taking basic self-care measures that are vital to everyday well-being regardless of whether or not you have a mental disorder.
Having mild OCD means it seldom incapacitates me. It certainly has, once upon a time, but that was before I developed the tools to manage it. I’ve got them now, ready to be deployed at a moment’s notice. Ironically, I reached a point a few weeks ago where my recovery from OCD was actually becoming compulsive – and so I’ve pulled back a bit, and instead of meticulously cataloging my day-to-day well-being I’ve simply committed to living well with or without OCD symptoms. And by doing that, I’m actually speeding my recovery up. So that’s what comes next: slow and steady progress towards a life where OCD’s allowed to come and go as it pleases and where I’m able to ignore it almost completely. It’s nice to know that goal’s becoming closer and closer with each passing day.